Hey guys, I'm moving to a new blog.
Don't try to ask for it, I'm sorry. Too much personal over there.
I'll be less updating on this blog anymore.
Wish ya guys to be happy.
Only for the special one could read my new blog actually.
Too much me and him.
Sigh.
It was a cruel day for me.I doesn't like any of this.
But what I can choose then?
I couldn't leave this cruel world in this moment because of something special for me.


Ah.. To BOYS, please be more responsible of everything else that you did to you beloved one.
To girls, please don't do anything stupid.
Hmm , I guess nothing to write over here.
My heart had broken to be hearing all from you.
But I'm still in the last hope actually , Maybe that I'm really love you.
I can't help it

Its been 4 days

I'm lonely again ..
I miss you badly , how about you ?
Still mad at me huh ?
Time is needed for everyone ..
Who knows what will happen at the future ..
We might be strangers , we might be friends ..
Who knows .. Just let the time flows ..
You're free to everyone now ..
Even though I am jealous , I can't do anything about it ..
Thats your life ..
I hope I can wish you happy but , is a strange feeling for me ..
Maybe thats the jealousing heart of mine ..
I'm lost out for the past few days ..
Almost get kill by myself ..
I can't really survive when you leaved me ..
Now days I'm still crying alone in my bedroom ..
I can't release my heart to be truely happy ..
Things that happen really hurts me ..
But now I can't find anyone that I really can talk with so i decide to write my blog again ..
Its been awhile I didn't write a long blog like this to release my heart ..

I saw that you're more happier than before ..
Am I right ? You had more friends now ..
They made you happy , they accompany you ..
Is much  better than me ..
Is that the true reason that you leave me ?
You wants to be happy ..
The reason you gave to everyone , is that the real ?
You told me , you never angry me for that ..
You're still ok with it , but then when you came back for CNY , you started to change ..
Or just what they say , I think too much ?
I wish I was that I think too much ..
Is really suffer for me ..

As everyone say , in my age just a puppy love ..
Doesn't matter at all and dont take it too seriously ..
But , what I have to say is , this realation is not JUST a PUPPY LOVE to me ..
Its means a lot and Its means forever to me ..
I knew you're the Mr. Right for me .. As people says as true love ..
I still remember the time when you asked me to marry you ..
Its September 9th 2010 , in my bedroom , around 7.30p.m - 8p.m ..
I take it seriously ,  you know ?
If I don't , I wouldn't say YES without a thinking ..
Because I really love you ..

In this area , there are too much memories of me and you ..
Wherever I go , whatever I do .. The memories are there ..
It makes me think of you again .. I miss you on the spot but I cant do anything else more ..
Too much memory in this country , not area ..
Memories floating around my mind .. They makes me tears all the time ..
I wish to have a second chance to hug you again ..
Without your pushing ..
I miss you badly now ..

Sorry that I love you , Sorry that I selfish on you , Sorry that I really need you ..
I tried to be strong , but I have no brave to be that strong ..
I'm still a little girl .. Don't think that I'm really matured at all ..
I still need someone to love me , I still need someone to take care of me , I still need someone to "tam" me ..
The one that I needed is just only you ..
Noone could give me the love except for you .. You're my one and only special one ..
hope you knows that ..

ILY

我累了 好像成熟一次 开心一次
听歌又流眼泪 家人又说到爱情方面又想哭 可是要忍着
这几天以来我真的累了 我什么都不想要
只想开心
或许要相信缘分吧 是你的 再怎么闹也是你的 不是你的再怎么挽留也会离开
可是 如果你不试着去要它 你又怎么得到
世界就是那么现实

累了 我真的不懂能怎样 只好等你气消吧

别忘了 不管什么事 我都是那么爱你

....

不要我想歪也很难了
你这是什么意思  我累了
猜测？犹豫？ 我真的累了
你生气，一直这样下去 对大家有好处吗？

你不累吗？
年初一 第一次 我的年初一 竟然是悲伤陪我度过
谢谢你 从此以后 我讨厌过年了
一个这么大的打击 你以前都不会让我找不到你 除了 4年前
你狠心 真的不让我找到你 到现在为止我都讨厌 我找不到我要找的人
爱情的开始 是你给我的 爱情的结束 也是你给我的
还有什么你还没给过我？
心知，有些不方便说
一年的时间 你要变就变 ？
真的能做到的？ 教我，我也想学。
人心肉做，要是铁做的 你说有多好
不用烦
唉。。
现在只有一个方法吧，杀了我 就不会再心疼 伤心
是你亲手把我的心杀了 我不会怪你 因为我爱你
不管你再错 你再坏 你还是你 还是我爱的你
我能怪谁？就只有自己，自己爱上了你

除非我出国 或许能够把一切忘掉 从心开始
在这里我永远都不可能会快乐
算了 竟然谁都不能怪 就只好不出声 我只不过是不重要的人
没人会管又怎样 爱情背叛了我 家人我早已绝望 朋友只不过是一时关心你的人
真真明白我的人其实没有人 我的痛 我的感受 没人体会过
只有自己明白自己 但不会表达 又有什么用
开心不开心也只有自己懂 脸上有笑容并不代表我真的快乐

唉  什么事都只有自己不好 自己不争气 自己脑袋转动不好 并不知道 你恨我什么
一切就只有自己不好

该怎么选择

谁能教我
我累了 你却丢下我一个人在这里
你生气了 我什么都做不到
我哭 我冷静的想 我爱你 我就忍了口气
哄你 ， 我不会哄人 对不起 或许惹气了你 我自己也不懂
可是需要这样吗？
还是第一次你把我丢下一个人在家
你去哪 了？

我不想一个人
新年了 就陪我一个礼拜好吗?
就一个礼拜 不要离开我
不要丢下我一个人 好吗
不要生气了好吗


还是 我离开了 你会比较好
你都说出口了 你还是喜欢一个人