you might be lucky janelle. not for long

you just looks like your mother.
chick.
but  you wont lucky forever.
so wat if her face gave me slap until red?
your heart pain?
slap back me if you dare. bitch
see wat would i do.
i wont stay in this house anymore.
you will regret want you done by now.
i wont give you a chance for finding me forever.
even internet or in life.
i want you to regret for caring her over much.
i wont give you happy.
even tought you were smiling.
i wont give you the chance to smile forever.
i want both of you regret.
you know i hate her.
what ever.
what a stupid me , thinking for obey both of you when i am big.
but now, i wont think about that stupid things anymore.
or people says me is a bad daughter.
so what ?
they make me to do that.
dont try to blame on me.
share your happyness to your beloved janelle.
im just a outsider.
non of my business.
dont blame me for being so awful daughter.
thats what you taught me.
i dont need your care.
i wont smile in front of you.
i wont give see my happy.
now my happy life just my boubui dear and me.
no others.
or might be my beloved friends.
BFF > Priscilla
        > YeeMan
        > Mokmo
        > Joey Lim
        > Samantha
        > KerryFoo
        > LeeXin
        > BaoHui
        > JiaYi
        > YeeYi
        > PuiEe
        > Wx
        > June
these people only could make me laught and see my happy.
i dont know what is family.
cause i cant get any love or supporting from them.
my heart has been broken from the family.
my heart has no "family".
i dont know what is important anymore except for my friends and my one and only beloved.
in my world, only got friends and my beloved.
that is nothing inportant than them.


broken family heart.
i doesnt feel moody.
but im feeling angry.
maybe it become my habit to hate this family.
that what they gives me.
even my friends are more sopprtive than this family.
even tought my brother's camera.
the price was "WOW".
3k if i didnt remember wrong.
but my phone just less than 1k.
they also dont want to buy for me.
always the biggest the best life they gets.
im not.
im more clever than my brother.
even i get 1A or above for my PMR result.
i dont think they will giving me a present or what.
im jealous about my friends.
thier present told them they give them gifts if they score As.
unucky for me.
my parents didnt say that.
just act as nothing.
like, so what ?
not their result.
yeah , what ever.
hopeless for this family.
i dont want hope for any present from now.
im hope for they letting me go to U.K with my dear.
cause i dont want stay at here.
suffer for me.
anything change at here it wouldnt be my problem.
haix.

i had dissapointed for everything about them.
haix.

nothing to say anymore.
bye now.

What happen now?

Whats the problem now?
Confusing .
Did I do something wrong?
Why cant u just tell me what happen and let me happier?
Why must I worried all the time?
I believe it on you.
I believe it in love.
But what today happens it made me dont believe it anything anymore.
Why you wanted to stay away from me?
If I do something wrong, please just tell me.
I dont want like few years ago.
Even I didnt or I dont know what I do wrong and you left me.
I choose to love you.
I choose to believe you really loves me.
Cause I love you no matter whats happen.
I just want you to be honest with me.
tell me whats your feel.
Or what Im wrong in.
So I could change if its my wrong.
But why, why you dont tell me.
Everything I could solve for you, i will do it no matter what it cause.
Its been 6 hours you didnt find me.
What should i do now?
Wait for you to find me ?
Or I find you ?
What should I do now?
Just hope Im beside you.
In this world, I could trust no one but you.
But ..
Everything just fake.
Even thought you said you wont leave me, I think..
I will be scare from now til forever.
Cry could solve anything.
Suffering just only me.
Sorry.
If all this had over, I will treat you better..
Wont let you get suffer anymre..
I promise.
Just only for you.
These are my words for you.

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hmm .... bored

Haiz wat a bored day ~


Am I thinking too much or wat??
Hope what I think is just fake.
Haiz~
Tomorrow is Ms. Tiew birthday ~.~"
Didnt prepare any gift for her , hmm ...
And also havent prepare for my dear ~
Oh my god,
What should i give him ~





Weeeeeeeeee~
just captured this photo , cause Im too bored><"

should i be happy or sad for hearing wat u says?

Haiz...
Dont know how to say all about this ..
Should I be happy for this ?
Pri-School girl ~
Doenst worth for u to love her so deep.. doesnt it ?
She didnt care about u , even she had a promise with u..
She had forgoten wat u guys had promise about..
Why u could love her so.. ?
Why cant u forget about her?
When u told me just now, im in shocked..
I cant control my tears.
I didnt want them to tears out.
Its bad for u n me.
But i cant hold it.
Its all over my brain now.
I dont mind u take me as a replacement.
But I hope Im permenent replacement.
I dont one another for replace me in ur heart.
My tears just couldnt stop.
Will I become another Ying ?
Always tearing for u ?
I dont want to.
Its suffering.
Haiz.. wat should I do?
Im sorry if im treating u bad as usual.
Just give me some time for cool my self down.
I just cant accept the truth.
Just hard for me to accept a own boyfriend's heart still got the girl inside it.
A big knife is inside my heart.
When I only could replace the real love of u?
Haiz .. Confused for everything is happening now .




My precious one.
Haiz I miss u that I always does.
My mood is mess up now.
What should I do to it?
Confusing.
I love You.
No matter what it cause, I still love you.





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Nights Everyone.


-----------------continue at the midnight ><"---------------------
Gald we had this talk..
Im feel much much better..
I hope, wat we talk today is forever and u reali means it  =)
My love one I love u =)
Its a touch and happy night for me~
Hopefuly that god will give us together until the end of our life =)
Hey ^.- a touching song while I hv this chat n typing this blog ~
Its nice, suit my mood =PP
Wondering wat r the name ~
Hehe ~ kay lur ~
Got ta off le ^^
Night yall ~

@##$@$!@#

what the fuck ?
whats the problem now !?
i sms also wrong?
midnight or not so what ?
doesn't ur mater bitch !
i'll study my best !
i'll enought sleep for everyday !
even i got or don't hv sms for midnight !
scold me for what ?!
fuck !
zzzz
fuck u zzz
im human not a dog zzz
push me for wat ?!
even thought u born me , so  what?
gv u push?
fuck la
zzz
brainless
i wish to leave this house soon forever !
i wont come back anymore !
even i married i wont be at malaysia !
malaysia is my worse place !
doesn;t get any family love from here !
im jealous about those who had family to loved !
im just alone !
i have no one to love except for my frens and my dear !
i like my frens abd my dear even more than i like my family !
even seens she came , i never gave loved by my family anymore !
okay !
from now on !
she dont listen to u all's , dont come and call me !
dont try to us me n scare her !
i wont care anymore !
i'll just be a quiet human in this house !
i'll try to arrange my time to spend more at super !
im no longer in this house anymore !



* typing while  crying ! *
* what the hell i cry for?! *
* its worthless to cry for this sucks family ! *
* i'll be a strong girl from now *
* i hv learn a lesson to be strong ! *
* to not for easily tearing for bitch ! *


thats what my feeling now ~
i reali wish for leave this house ..
这个家不再值得让我留念了。
i hv lost what i had before.
everything had became memories.
i hv nth left for this family.
im just a nobody in this house.
i'll disappear as soon as possible.




i think its time for stop typing.
good night.

... 我，给了你很多烦恼吗？

我们之间到底出现了什么问题而要你去烦？
如果，我的猜测没错..我大概都懂是什么是。
But你可放心，我不会离开你。
我爱你比你爱我更深。
今年是第四年了。
我希望的是，能看到你一天比一天的快乐。
而不是一天的比一天烦。
我很担心过了这年我们会怎样。
你对我说你不会再丢下我。
要是你呆在马来亚，我当然有着信心。
可是，你要回英国了。
我该怎么办？
很想把时间停留。
我很珍惜我们的每一份每一秒。
我很在乎你想的东西。
是因为我太爱你。
每一次你在我身边陪着我时，我很自然的吧每一样不开心的
都忘掉。
当彼此静静的相看着对方，那种感觉好甜好甜。
感受得到你对我的爱，你对我的好。
我懂你已改变，
比起以前来说，你真的很不一样了。
你会想到未来。
我很开心我们在回一起。
你要我怎么忘了你？
我做不到忘了你这事。
……但，我真的很想知道你在为我而烦了什么。
我不想你一人承受辛苦。
为什么不能让我知？
我不怕苦，只怕你辛苦。
我很担心你，你懂吗？
我很想知，可是你不说就算了。
不想勉强你做一些你不喜欢的。

可是，要记得哦宝贝，我永远都爱着你。
不管你在哪，我都会不顾一切的爱你。
muahx..


Don't moody o~sorry..


Nights.. [[moody night]]

Hate you!

What the hell ??? zzzz
Suddenly don't give me go for what ???
If want happen , early ady happen lo zzz
Scare ur ass??zzz
Damn it...
Don't talk rubbish to me zzz
I wont care what you say from now zzz
I hate you !
I trust on you , I tell you everything about him and his family ..
You treat me as??? FUCK
Speachless zz
Early in the morning , I heard a song "我们分手吧"
What the zz Bad day !!!
Hate today and I more hate you !!!
Don't ever dare talk to me about me and his relationship zz
I wont hear any of ur comments anymore !!!
Even thought he will go back to England for study , I wont break up with him !
Unlike you!
Whats your brain thinking of????
Must I hear what you comments on me ??? NO
I wont listen to any of your rubbish !
---------------------------------------Write until here first-----------------------------
------------------Night---------------------
Sakit hati with this family ~
Haiz , beg you my god ..
Give me go england with Dear ~
I really very hope for going with him ~
Sick in Malaysia ..
I just want a happy life ...
Just keep it for pain deep down my heart~
If YOU think she is your dearest then go love her as your daughther!
I can take care of my self anyway !
I don't need any of your love!
Your love just sucks !
Doesn't work on me anymore !
Heart broken from the day you cause of her and yelled at me !!!
From that day start , in my heart , you just a normal person to me !
I hated both of you !
I hated this family !
I want to leave this home!
If  I could make my own decision, I'll choose for leaving this house..!
You guys force me to do that !
I can't stand any of this HATE !
Suffer for me !
I cried but no boday knows~
If i told anyone , they just tell me a word .
"Their your parents .. Forgive them .. they just love you "
SUCKS word ! Didn';t felt before , you wont know the pain !
My heart only got a wish !
That is I want to leave Malaysia and live with my Laogong forever~
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Sad and sakit hati day ~
Don't know I could stand how much longer for this ~
Suffer Suffer Suffer ~



Goodnight le ~

Woots O.o

Hoho ~ Harlo ~
How manny weeks i didn't write le ?? xPP

>< [4/3 - 1st time wear colour cont ~ me eyes red until canot see ><]

>< 肿了~
At skul more red ~

 

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Haha~ 6/3 went for S.H.E concert with my dear oh ~ 

Hehe~

Hmm~ kinda bored at the concert~

Cause we are not the fans of them ~

Just that my mother had 2 free tickets ..

Hmm~ a song very touched me ~

“爱我的资格”- S.H.E

Nice ~

Haha ~ thier concert quite success lo I feel ~

Eerything very nice ^^

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Haha ~ my father's lighter ~ so big ><"

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Lalala ~ Dear today come my house eat dinner O.o lol

Food not nice nia ~.~

Both of us also eat very less O.o

Lol ~ Naughty dear...

Play take picture ==

Take until i so ugly ~.~

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Hoho ~ a sweet day , sweet memories~

Dear, I Love You ~ ^^

不需再怀疑，我是真心爱你的～嘻嘻

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Goodnight oh ~